BEN RENEER

BEN RENEER

All The Air

Ben Reneer & Eric Michael Robertson

Release Date: January 26, 2024
Format: Digital Download
All The Air

Lyrics

It was backyards in the spring

Cold creek water, seventeen

All the wreckage of a dream

Without a way out


I was bound to make mistakes

If it’s more than you can take

I will reach through sheets of rain

Into the drought


All the air

In my lungs

Could never scream out loud enough

To ever wake you up

All the heat

In the sun

Could never burn out bright enough

To fix what I’ve done


In a heat-stroke city square

Incoherent, unaware

All the lilacs in your hair

Were dying


Did we kill the only one?

Put a shroud around the sun?

The rocks you used to toss

are crying


All the air

In my lungs

Could never scream out loud enough

To ever wake you up

All the heat

In the sun

Could never burn out bright enough

To fix what I’ve done  


Hanging on that tree

Proved you wrong

Didn’t we?


All the air

In my lungs

Could never scream out loud enough

To ever wake you up

All the heat

In the sun

Could never burn out bright enough

To fix what I’ve done

Invisible Border

Ben Reneer & Eric Michael Robertson

Release Date: January 12, 2024
Format: Digital Download
Invisible Border

Lyrics

Walking through a Southern dream

Magnolias in the sun

A young 19

And how it comes undone

You dive in, open eyed

Scrape the bottom, bruise your pride

Keep drinking, watch the tide fall

The lake runs dry


When is it over?

I wanna go back

I wanna go back

Invisible border

I wanna go back

I wanna go back


Filing it with the dumb things we did when we were young

And you’re so stuck on it

Obsessing with

How we behave

The worst of sins

How close you shave

Trying hard to feel the rain

But you’re too numb


When is it over?

I wanna go back

I wanna go back

Invisible border

I wanna go back

I wanna go back


When is it over?

I wanna go back

I wanna go back

Invisible border

I wanna go back

I wanna go back

Summer in the South (feat. Emma Reneer)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: January 5, 2024
Format: Digital Download
Summer in the South

Lyrics

A year of summer in the south

But I was still in a desert drought

The days and weeks repeated

Your rain was what I needed


Sun is up and school is out

There wasn’t much to talk about

But how The Word was bleeding

The sidewalks overheating


Tell me now, what drew you in?

The absolution of your sin?

Or just to make your parents proud?

To preach the victim of the crowd


Wide awake and home again

The past is always changing


A year of summer in the south

But I was still in a desert drought

The days and weeks repeated

Your rain was what I needed

Hold Christmas - EP

Ben Reneer

Release Date: November 6, 2023, 2024
Format: Digital Download
Hold Christmas (feat. Jake Hansen & Emma Reneer)
O Little Town of Bethlehem
I Heard the Bells on Christmas Day (feat. Emma Reneer)
What Child Is This?

Lyrics

Hold Christmas

December 26th

I’m shoveling the walk

The tree is in the gutter

Lights are turning off

A couple months of snowfall

Before the sun comes out

We’re back to being hurried

Back to acting proud


I wish I could hold Christmas

And it would stick around

For days when we run empty

For days when we feel down

I wish I could hold Christmas

And even in the darkest cloud

The light would shine out


On the other side

We pass another year

It’s so strange to live 

Without you standing here

Waiting for the fall

And skies to turn gray

Somehow in the shadow

A beacon shows the way


I wish I could hold Christmas

And it would stick around

For days when we run empty

For days when we feel down

I wish I could hold Christmas

And even in the darkest cloud

The light would shine out


I could wait another year

But soon enough I’m gonna pack my bags and get outta here

Make my way across the sky

To a home lit up with Christmas lights


I wish I could hold Christmas

And it would stick around

For days when we run empty

For days when we feel down

I wish I could hold Jesus

And even in the darkest cloud

His light would shine out


-

I Heard the Bells On Christmas Day

I heard the bells on Christmas day

Their old familiar carols play,

And wild and sweet the words repeat

Of peace of earth, good will to men.


I thought how, as the day had come,

The belfries of all Christendom

Had rolled along th'unbroken song

Of peace on earth, good will to men.


And in despair I bowed my head:

"There is no peace on earth," I said,

"For hate is strong, and mocks the song

Of peace on earth, good will to men."


Then pealed the bells more loud and deep:

"God is not dead, nor doth He sleep;

The wrong shall fail, the right prevail,

With peace on earth, good will to men."


Till, ringing, singing on its way,

The world revolved from night to day

A voice, a chime, a chant sublime,

Of peace on earth, good will to men.


-

O Little Town Of Bethlehem

O little town of Bethlehem,

how still we see thee lie!

Above thy deep and dreamless sleep

the silent stars go by.

Yet in thy dark streets shineth

the everlasting light;

the hopes and fears of all the years

are met in thee tonight.


For Christ is born of Mary;

and, gathered all above,

while mortals sleep, the angels keep

their watch of wond'ring love.

O morning stars, together

proclaim the holy birth,

and praises sing to God the King,

and peace to men on earth.


How silently, how silently,

the wondrous gift is giv'n!

So God imparts to human hearts

the blessings of His heav'n.

No ear may hear His coming,

but in this world of sin,

where meek souls will receive Him still,

the dear Christ enters in.


O holy Child of Bethlehem,

descend to us, we pray;

cast out our sin and enter in;

be born in us today.

We hear the Christmas angels,

the great glad tidings tell;

O come to us, abide with us,

our Lord Emmanuel!


-

What Child Is This?

What Child is this, who, laid to rest,

On Mary's lap is sleeping?

Whom angels greet with anthems sweet,

While shepherds watch are keeping?


This, this is Christ, the King,

Whom shepherds guard and angels sing:

Haste, haste to bring Him laud,

The Babe, the Son of Mary!


Why lies He in such mean estate,

Where ox and ass are feeding?

Good Christian, fear: for sinners here

The silent Word is pleading.


This, this is Christ, the King,

Whom shepherds guard and angels sing:

Haste, haste to bring Him laud,

The Babe, the Son of Mary!


So bring Him incense, gold, and myrrh,

Come, peasant, king to own Him.

The King of kings salvation brings;

Let loving hearts enthrone Him.


This, this is Christ, the King,

Whom shepherds guard and angels sing:

Haste, haste to bring Him laud,

The Babe, the Son of Mary!

Give Me A Reason

Ben Reneer

Release Date: October 20, 2023
Format: Digital Download
Give Me A Reason

Lyrics

Things break but the pain’s delayed

All that I could say was what my name was

Angels came like rain comes down

To sleep the price is steep

Some things you keep, but me you throw out

With the doubt


Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind

Give me a reason

Not to go


We tossed, ocean’s to cross

But the greatest loss was the space between your hands

And the crossed out plans

Vacancy in the part of me people pay to see

The two become one in the neon sun


Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind

Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind


I wanted to live with the lies they were selling

I wanted to find out they were right

They were right

I was wrong


I wanted find in you all I was needing

I wanted to come home and see

You were there

You were there all along

You were there

I was gone


Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind

Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind

Give me a reason

Not to go

Not to leave this town behind

Give me a reason

Not to go

Blind

Cross

Ben Reneer

Release Date: September 22, 2023
Format: Digital Download
Cross (feat. Cayson Renshaw)

Lyrics

Halfway across the Midwest

A fire in my chest

Her clouds were always threatening

Sleepless on a old couch

It washed my heart out

When she started raining


Moving through Missouri

Shrugging off the worry

I guess I should have seen it come

Stopping at gas-stations

Search for validation

I blew a fuse and she was done


Cross

Crossing out the plans that I had with her

Loss

Losing this game that I’d already lost

I don’t understand the reasons why she tossed it away

Staring at the summer

Man, it’s such a bummer

That she didn’t choose to stay

The body in a tomb

Another empty room

This is not a Good Friday


Cross

Crossing out the plans that I had with her

Loss

Losing this game that I’d already lost

I don’t understand the reasons why she tossed it away


I’m slowly driving home

Come Sunday could you roll this stone away?


Cross

Crossing out the plans that I had with her

Loss

Losing this game that I’d already lost

I don’t understand the reasons why she tossed it away

See You (feat. Sarah Jane)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: March 12, 2023
Format: Digital Download
See You (feat. Sarah Jane)

Lyrics

I wanna see you at your best

In the morning, first day of June

Sunlight falling into your room

I wanna see you while you rest

In the dim light of the evening news

Sidewalk passing under my shoes

I wanna see you


But you’re behind some fear right now

I can wait another year somehow

Somehow


I wanna see you taking flight

The world she opens up to you

Spread your wings, a wash of blue

I wanna see you every night

Till the end comes and the star burn out

And we know ourselves without a doubt

I wanna see you


But you’re behind some fear right now

I can wait another year somehow

Somehow


But you’re behind some fear right now

I can wait another year somehow

But you’re behind some fear right now

I can wait another year somehow

Somehow

My Hands Were Stuck In My Pockets

Ben Reneer

Release Date: September 2, 2022
Format: Digital Download
Somewhere
Deep
Wasted Space (feat. Alba)
Comfortable Lies
A Ghost In Someone's Body (feat. Emma Reneer)
Dying Flower
Is It Over? (feat. Alba)
Hold On To Me (feat. Sarah Jane)
Senseless (feat. Paige Boyatzis)
Thinking of Me
Go.

Lyrics

Somewhere

Somewhere there’s a girl in a car

Driving so fast, feeling so far away

And I wish, I wish I was there by her side


Someday she’ll come around

But I could be gone and she might have changed her mind anyway

So how long until we’re both whole again?


-

Deep

Do you remember the night that we met

Under the glow of the street lamps?

Was trying to swim in your dark silhouette

My hands were stuck in my pockets

In my pockets


2 a.m. is too early to know

Which town the sun’s gonna shine on

And which way this road that we’re on is gonna go

And how to expose what we’re hiding

What we’re hiding


How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep

How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep


There was weight on both sides of the scale

The bad in the good and the heaven in hell

I guess we’re both in the middle of time

And I guess it takes one to know one

Takes one to know one


How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep

How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep


Most of me wants to be holding you

Part of you wants to be gone

If we stay here could we know the truth

And which part we got wrong



How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep

How did it get so deep?

I should be getting more sleep


-

Wasted Space

Tell me when you’ll come

I’m starting fires

All your silent words

Are tripping wires

Sinking, we’ll find that

This ship won’t float

Thinking can’t bring you back

I try to loosen the hope


And back again

There’s so much wasted, so much wasted time

As we spin

So much wasted, so much wasted space

On my skin


Tie me to the tracks

I’ll wake up younger

And see things in binary

And soft as thunder


On the island in late July

I was willing to let you try

My trust on the water


I was stuck between out and in

On the edge of the truth, I am

Too much like my father


And back again

There’s so much wasted, so much wasted time

As we spin

So much wasted, so much wasted space

On my skin

You can’t fire me if I quit

But I won’t

Should I leave you alone?


We’ll be swimming with the dead again

And she’ll be living in my head again

Yeah we came a long way

Then we threw it away

And back again

There’s so much wasted, so much wasted time

As we spin

So much wasted, so much wasted space

On my skin

You can’t fire me if I quit

But I won’t

Should I leave you alone?


-

Comfortable Lies

You said you miss me

I miss me too

In moments when you kiss me I’m not there with you

We’re both distracted

we’re both flinching at pain

Affected by weather 

I could do without this constant chance of rain


We can’t go back to the other side

Before the revelation

And live a life in these comfortable lies

Comfortable lies


Downtown we wander

Assumptions keep us warm

Now your words like thunder

I’m shaken I’m torn

Trying to stand and wipe the blood from my chin

Worried it’s over if I go down again


We can’t go back to the other side

Before the revelation

And live a life in these comfortable lies

Comfortable lies


These winter nights

In your frozen past

I don’t wanna know

But I gotta ask


We can’t go back to the other side

Before the revelation

And live a life in these comfortable lies

Comfortable lies


-

A Ghost In Someone’s Body

I was still alone

The moment that you held me

Cause I couldn’t let go

Of who I thought I was


I guess that’s how things go

It’s yours and then it’s history

When I was feeling ready

It ended just because


Am I a ghost in someone’s body?

Am I a voice inside your mind?

And if I’m haunting you, I’m sorry

I haunt myself sometimes


Unprepared

For the things you told me

I hope I didn’t scare you

Buried in my thoughts


I hope you know

How much I think I need you

So I write another poem

And hope that that’s enough


Am I a ghost in someone’s body?

Am I a voice inside your mind?

And if I’m haunting you, I’m sorry

I haunt myself sometimes

I haunt myself sometimes


If you keep dragging this on

Then I’ll keep dragging us on

Go find a way not to haunt someone


If I keep dragging this on

Then you’ll keep dragging us on

Go find a way not to haunt someone


Am I a ghost in someone’s body?

Am I a voice inside your mind?

And if I’m haunting you, I’m sorry

I haunt myself sometimes


-

Is It Over?

Why does it hurt so bad to love you?

To love you

We have so much to live up to

live up to

And this could be the dying flower

That I have cut too soon

In your room it gets you higher

Than I could get you


Hey, is it over?

Did we fall right in and turn to dust?

Hey, is it over?

Did the sun descend on both of us?


Now I wait with no conclusion

Conclusion

Thanks for clearing the confusion

Confusion

By the time this washes over

I could be moving on

Or haunted in the memory

Not knowing which way’s up


Hey, is it over?

Did we fall right in and turn to dust?

Hey, is it over?

Did the sun descend on both of us?


If it’s over, tell me it’s over

Did you forget I was waiting for you

If it’s over, tell me it’s over

I have so much work to do


Hey, is it over?

Did we fall right in and turn to dust?

Hey, is it over?

Did the sun descend on both of us?


Hey, is it over?

Did we fall right in and turn to dust?

Hey, is it over?

Did the sun descend on both of us?


-

Hold On To Me

I tread the sidewalk till it ends

She talks to Jesus

But there’s silence on the telephone

I guess it’s cool to just be friends

I’ll finish that movie on my own

On my own


So don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk

Don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk


The trouble is it’s hard to find

You see yourself in the tired eyes of someone

The trouble is she changed her mind

And what we had is now the last snow in the summer sun


So don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk

Don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk


I can’t make you let me into your head

And I can’t forget what you said

I can’t make you let me into your head

And I can’t forget


So don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk

Don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk


Don’t hold on to me if you’re not gonna hold me

Let’s not talk if you’re not gonna talk


-

Senseless

The sky is so pretty right now

I wonder if your pretty eyes see it

I need a good love

I wonder if you’re ever gonna be it


In a couple weeks I could drive away

And you could find another victim

It’s not your fault I feel this way

Senseless with no direction


This town is a lot of things

It gets you down

It lets you bleed

I need to get out

But I can’t find a ticket to leave


In a couple weeks you could drive away

And I could find another victim

It’s not your fault I feel this way

Senseless with no direction


In a couple years and a little more gray

We’ll stop dreaming about each other

It’s no one’s fault we’ll find a way

To get senseless for one another

Yeah we’ll get senseless for each other


Where do you go when the lights are turning off?

Where do you go when your hopes are falling from the windows?

Where do you go when it feels like you’ll never be enough?


In a couple weeks you could drive away

And I could find another victim

It’s not your fault I feel this way

Senseless with no direction


-

Thinking Of Me

Maybe I’ll come through your new town

Stand on a stage and wave my arms around, around

Round and round

Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you, you weren’t thinking of me, of me


Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me

Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me


DUI every time you said something I wanted to hear

And on the ground you said you found a reason to disappear

And reappear


Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me

Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me


Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me

Maybe I’ll show up on your screen

And remind you that you weren’t thinking of me


-

Go.

If I tell you everything

You might run and hide

So I tell you everything

I can’t help it, I can’t stand to think I lied


If I tell you everything

You might leave for good

So I tell you everything

I can’t help it, I can’t help it

Did you think I could?


Did I dream this whole thing up?

These fake emotions kind of taste like blood

I’m liberated now but lost in the flood

Go.

Before I wake up


When you were my companion

The autumn nights we spent

Tossing round those ancient words

Like we knew what they meant


I’m careful with my words now

To keep them based in fact

I’m holy water frozen over

You slip and break your back


Did I dream this whole thing up?

These fake emotions kind of taste like blood

I’m liberated now but lost in the flood

Go.

Before I wake up

Go

Before I wake up


It's gonna take a lot of guts to stand my ground

To give you up

It's gonna take a lot from both of us

It's gonna take a lot of guts to stand my ground

To give you up

It's gonna take a lot from both of us


Did I dream this whole thing up?

These fake emotions kind of taste like blood

I’m liberated now but lost in the flood

Go.

Before I wake up

Go.

Before I wake up

Go.

Before I wake up

Go.

Before I wake up

Go.

Before I wake up

Samadhi

Ben Reneer/Rain No Rain

Release Date: March 9, 2022
Format: Digital Download
Samadhi

She Walked Off

Ben Reneer

Release Date: December 23, 2021
Format: Digital Download
She Walked Off

Lyrics

She walked off in a cloud of dust

Blinding all the rest of us

Oh my goodness, all my guts

Twist and turn till the sun comes up


Ahhh

Ahhh

Ahhh


Flowers for the swindled crowd

The box is full, but we’re emptied out

Trying to sleep when we don’t know how

No

We can’t hold it down


Ahhh

Ahhh

Ahhh


Wait a day and we’ll be upside down again

Out in space but somehow underground

I can’t figure it out


Ahhh

Ahhh

Ahhh

Flowers

Ben Reneer

Release Date: June 11, 2021
Format: Digital Download
Flowers

Lyrics

It’s a one way street

You can’t back up or you’ll pop the tires

So I got out of this town without a fight

And I move blindly

From shade to shadow

And if you think that I don’t know myself

You’re right


I wander out

To wind up lonely

I’d get more done if I could concentrate

And when we fell

Into the fog

The mountains melted into the Ocean State


Hold on

For just a couple hours

Night is over soon

Hold on

Your fists are full of flowers

That are bound to bloom


I might go park out in the Utah desert

And walk till I become the burning sun

If I was gonna

That’s how I’d do it

And skip the shatter of a hidden gun


Moving through these states alone

Moving through these streets of stone

The promised land, you’ll understand

Is far from home

Far from home


Hold on

For just a couple hours

Night is over soon

Hold on

Your fists are full of flowers

That are bound to bloom

Snow (feat. Kyson Kidd)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: March 26, 2021
Format: Digital Download
Snow (feat. Kyson Kidd)

Lyrics

I’ve been so hard on you

Trying to love with knuckles white

Just to grasp at words last night


Fearing a broken promise

Well, being honest where’s the proof

Fill my old skin with new truth


And snow will bury last night

I hope you’re doing alright

In snow that buries last night

I hope


Praying that you can manage

If I damage us again

Open eyes and say “amen”


I just want you back here

I’m a selfish kiss goodbye

And God is in the falling sky


And snow will bury last night

I hope you’re doing alright

In snow that buries last night

I hope


Now I’m back in the memory

Tearing at the seams

Wishing I could wear it

And let you be


And snow will bury last night

I hope you’re doing alright

In snow that buries last night

I hope

Swallow (feat. Tell the City)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: February 5, 2021
Format: Digital Download
Swallow (feat. Tell the City) [alternate version]
Swallow [piano version]

Lyrics

Can you hear me over the ocean?

A satellite said that you would

Can you save a ship from a sailor?

Tell me these words have been misunderstood


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in


Oh, 132 questions 

Make their way down south main every night

Small town bars and highway connections

I try but I just can't board my last flight


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in


Have you sold your wisdom for glory?

Would you let me sell mine for youth?

Now you whisper "The journey is not over"

I rattle my cage on the edge of the truth


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in

Brooklyn Crucifixion

Ben Reneer

Release Date: September 25, 2020
Format: Digital Download
Brooklyn Crucifixion

Lyrics

That night he comes to me

The mythic ancestor in a dream

With raging eyes, I am unclean

But my hands are free


I woke in soaking sheets

White walls surround me

So I threw paint at everything

Till they found me

Till they found me


There she is again

Staring out the window in the dark

On the tired streets of Brooklyn

There she is again

Between the father and the son

Tied up in crucifixion


How do you paint the rain in someone’s eyes?


Above the clouds that cry, the sky is blue

But I wonder, late at night were you always you?

It doesn’t matter anymore

I should be going

But I can’t close very door

When the water’s still flowing

When the water’s still flowing


There she is again

Staring out the window in the dark

On the tired streets of Brooklyn

There she is again

Between the father and the son

Tied up in crucifixion


How do you paint the rain in someone’s eyes?


Don’t you dare think that what you’ve seen doesn’t matter

Cause when you see it you’ll feel everything


There she is again

Staring out the window in the dark

On the tired streets of Brooklyn

There she is again

Between the father and the son

Tied up in crucifixion


How do you paint the rain in someone’s eyes?

Orange Avenue (Live at BYU Radio, Provo, UT, 2019)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: July 31, 2020
Format: Digital Download
Orange Avenue (Live at BYU Radio)

Lyrics

I woke up cold and out of touch

The photos and the memories will never be enough

But if I could walk those streets today, would you still feel so far away?


Do you remember when I died?

Stepped on that airplane and let it take me from your side

On the last day of July

In a cloudy southern sky


Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain every stop reminding me of you

Orange Avenue?


There was nothing I could do,

but sit and watch the fire and rain of bullets fall on you

If God will send his angels down,

and wash the blood from your cold town.


I'm still drenched from the first time it rained on me

And now a constant downpour of tragedy


Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain every stop reminding me of you

Orange Avenue?

Between These Walls

Ben Reneer

Release Date: April 24, 2020
Format: Digital Download
Welcome
I Confess
Downriver
Away From Us (Summer Downpour)
Walls
27 Years
When The Sun Goes Down
Farewell

Lyrics

I Confess

Every night

You say it's the last time

But tonight

You can't make up your mind

If I could

Rescue you, you know I would

There may be

Others in line ahead of me


And I have given you my pride

Do what you'd like


I confess to everything

And you get less than you deserve

I confess to everything


Fallen prey

To dream of landing in your soul someday

Don't you dare

Let him drag you down


And I have given you my pride

Do what you'd like

I confess to everything

And you get less than you deserve

I confess to everything

And you get less than you deserve


Tied up in purgatory

In the heat of his arms

Break out and run towards me

Pull the fire alarm


And I have given you my pride

Do what you'd like


I confess to everything

And you get less than you deserve

I confess to everything

And you get less than you deserve

I...


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Away From Us (Summer Downpour)

I left the crowd to join the circus

I wore the uniform and faced

My mind erased

Relentless warning

But still your children suffer

It's been four years

But I can taste it when I see those faces


A part of me

In the summer downpour

Pardon me for focusing on the things I can't ignore

And now I see you in the distant tail lights 

Everything just moves away from us tonight


I left the town to join the army

I did my best to fall in line

To not waste time

Orlando calls me

But not for simple reasons


A part of me

In the summer downpour

Pardon me for focusing on the things I can't ignore

And now I see you in the distant tail lights 

Everything just moves away from us

us...


I could write a book about it but it wouldn't bring you back

I could plead forever but that won't change the time or the place we're at

The place we're at

The place we're at


A part of me

In the summer downpour

Pardon me for focusing on the things I can't ignore

And now I see you in the distant tail lights 

Everything just moves away from us

Yeah everything just moves away from us

Everything just moves away from us

Tonight

Tonight

Tonight


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Downriver

Every time 

I think that I found it

I go and drown it 

In gasoline


Every time 

I’m kicking the sidewalk

You’d think I’ve gone crazy

I’m just blowing off steam


And I woke up downriver

It feels like only yesterday

And I’m too cold to shiver

So I crawl back in the water

And drift away


These streets

They don’t have the answer

Trust me, I’ve been there

She’s a deadbolt door


Vague dreams

A shadow on her porch swing

Just another kid at bat in Burgess Park

What’s he swinging for?

What’s he swinging for?


And I woke up downriver

It feels like only yesterday

And I’m too cold to shiver

So I crawl back in the water

And drift away


Maybe I

Was in your dream then

But I was late

You found another

Found another


And I woke up downriver

It feels like only yesterday

And I’m too cold to shiver

So I crawl back in the water

And drift away


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27 Years

Between these walls I can't tell

If I'm crushed or cradled

Between the bars in this hotel

I wish there was something you could hold


What's it gonna take?

Twenty-seven years on a rock in space

When's the fever gonna break?

Oh, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?


Tie me down to where I've been

I keep driving through the fences

We've been around one more spin

But I can't regain my senses


What's it gonna take?

Twenty-seven years on a rock in space

When's the fever gonna break?

Oh, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?

Oh, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?


I know it has to go

Does it have to go so quick?

It's like I'm still there

And it makes me sick


What's it gonna take?

Twenty-seven years on a rock in space

When's the fever gonna break?

Oh, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?

Yeah, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?

Oh, what's it gonna take for this place to feel like home?


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Walls

When I think about you

I don't know where you are

A piece of this old car breaks

And I have gone too far

Yeah, I have gone too far


What good is the dogma

If we're still feeling scared?

What's the use in calling

If I'm still unprepared?

If I'm still unprepared?


I can't see through these walls today

They're killing my view

I can't see through these walls today

But you're asking me to


When do I get answers?

The staircase is on fire

And all I have are questions

And everyone's a liar

Yeah, everyone's a liar


I can't see through these walls today

They're killing my view

I can't see through these walls today

But you're asking me to


Is it the lidocaine

Or just the apathy?

Filling my restless brain

It takes control of me

Slow

Control

I'm not the same as I was

Before the war


I can't see through these walls today

They're killing my view

I can't see through these walls today

But you're asking me to


I can't see through these walls today

They're killing my view

I can't see through these walls today

But you're asking me to

Yeah, you're asking me to

Yeah, you're asking me to


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When The Sun Goes Down

Buy a piece of land

You're gonna build a house on it

Gonna start a family and watch 'em grow

What if I won't settle down?

What if I keep drifting?

What if I never know?


Well, now we're lining up

To fill our homes with stuff

We'll be lined up in the dirt

When there's nothing left

And we're all out of breath

Yeah we're all out of words


Are we just here to spin in place?

They don't care in outer space

When the sun goes down

When the sun goes down


Well we're not talking

But I still wanna see you

Gotta find a way to tell you that

Well maybe that's stupid

Cause I haven't seen you

And I don't know where you're at


Are we just here to spin in place?

They don't care in outer space

When the sun goes down

When the sun goes down


And we'll go back out into the cosmos

And we'll know exactly where we're from


Are we just here to spin in place?

They don't care in outer space

When the sun goes down

When the sun goes down

Eyes Like June (feat. Emily Reneer)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: September 20, 2019
Format: Digital Download
Eyes Like June (feat. Emily Reneer)

Lyrics

They say "someday you'll miss today"

I guess I already knew that

Candles burn out

Life's the same way

You don't have to prove that


Where's the kid you left behind?

With eyes like June and hair grown wild

I'm the first to know you have to go but don't leave

Don't leave


You'll move on son

Maybe dream with someone

I'll still wake up in this small town, small town

Buildings go up but the clouds fall down

And so do we, so do we


Where's the kid you left behind?

With eyes like June and hair grown wild

I'm the first to know you have to go but don't leave

Don't leave


Let go of the morning and the tossed and turning wind

Let go of the small hands that will never be small again

Again


Where's the kid you left behind?

With eyes like June and hair grown wild

I'm the first to know you have to go but don't leave

Don't leave

Where's the kid you left behind?

With eyes like June and hair grown wild

I'm the first to know you have to go but don't leave

Don't leave

Songbird (feat. Tell the City)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: July 19, 2019
Format: Digital Download
Songbird (feat. Tell the City)

Lyrics

That night I stepped into a dream

But now I barely want to sing

Well my voice feels fine, but there’s nothing left to say

I try searching for her face

But lately the clouds are in the way

And her phone works fine

I guess she’s got nothing to say


I’m just a songbird in a cage half screaming

And if she can’t see through the haze, what’s the point of songs again?


Not here is all she’ll ever be

One cold year now has turned to three

And it’s fine if it’s only ever me

Yeah it’s fine if I can never breathe


I’m just a songbird in a cage half screaming

And if she can’t see through the haze, what’s the point of songs again?


A songbird

A songbird

A songbird in a cage with his wings clipped and no way out


Blue skies show

And if she’ll untie me I might go or I might stay, and just keep circling

Yeah I might stay and just keep circling alone


And it’s fine if it’s only ever me

Yeah it’s fine if I can never breathe

I’m just a songbird in a cage, half screaming

And if she can’t see through the haze what’s the point of songs again?

A songbird

A songbird

A songbird in a cage with his wings clipped and no way out

Facets of This Faded Memory

Ben Reneer

Release Date: February 22, 2019
Format: Digital Download
Arizona (feat. Ari Kokol)
I Should Have Been There
Off My Mind
The Middle of the Story
Michigan
Thin Light (acoustic)
Is It Too Late? (feat. Kyson Kidd)

Lyrics

Arizona

I could barely feel it

It took some time to trickle in

A dream I can’t get up from

The voice of God in a siren

Now the kids are gone and you’d given in

Yeah, the kids are gone and you’d given in


Empty skies won’t wash away the blood

So we cry like Arizona never does


We were left to wonder what we did and why you died

Scarlet skies of thunder

Money’s loose and tongues are tied

And hollow words can’t heal our pride

No, hollow words can’t heal our pride


Empty skies won’t wash away the blood

So we cry like Arizona never does

Empty skies won’t wash away the blood

So we cry like Arizona never does


Now I’m standing here alone

Wondering what it’s like to lose me

Time is not something we own

Buy it back, we’re slipping slowly

And I think you may have thought:

If living’s hard then dying’s easy


Empty skies won’t wash away the blood

So we cry like Arizona never does

Empty skies won’t wash away the blood

So we cry like Arizona never does


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I Should Have Been There

I drive slow over that bridge

Blasted by the sunlight

Burned back to just a kid

I stand by the old post office

Where I sent that letter

I’m sure she never read

The old Saint Joseph river flows into the harbor

The lake just up ahead


I should have been there when you died

I’m sorry

I should have been there by your side

This time of year the apple trees are heavy

But I’m just losing sleep I can’t hold down

I guess I’m still not ready

Stuck in 2011

Just to put my time in

So I can call it even

All these things I’ve done


I should have been there when you died

I’m sorry

I should have been there by your side


And I was close but far away

It was further than my mind could carry me to you

To relocate the facets of this faded memory


Pushing snow off of the driveway

And your face from my memory

I wipe the windshield clean

Longing for life among the redwoods

I’m stuck here with saplings

I am something in between


I should have been there when you died

I’m sorry

I should have been there by your side

I should have been there when you died

I’m sorry

I should have been there by your side


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Off My Mind

Blue eyes open wide

Side to side, just trying to find it again

It’s about time forget about everything


Love is bound it isn’t blind

No


Don’t leave me drowning in the river

I don’t know if I can swim back

You left me here, head under water

I don’t want to live like that

And I’ll spend everyday struggling to find

A way to get to shore and to get you off my mind


Maybe I’m still afraid 

Maybe I’ll just drive all night

Bright lights in my eyes

I’m losing sleep, I’m losing sight


Love is bound it isn’t blind

No


Don’t leave me drowning in the river

I don’t know if I can swim back

You left me here, head under water

I don’t want to live like that

And I’ll spend everyday struggling to find

A way to get to shore and to get you off my mind


I’m a stowaway in a ship I never chose

Locked up with the others who have fallen for your soul


Don’t leave me drowning in the river

I don’t know if I can swim back

You left me here, head under water

I don’t want to live like that

And I’ll spend everyday struggling to find

A way to get to shore and to get you off my mind

A way to get to shore and to get you off my mind


-

The Middle of the Story

ahh ahh, ahhh ahh

ahh ahhh, ahh ahh

ahh ahh, ahhh ahh

ahh ahh, ahh ahhh


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Michigan

I need something to change

An extra dose of medicine in these veins

It’s been so long this way

My eyes fixed on the mirror and what I hate


If I go back to Michigan

Will I hear your voice again

If I go back to Michigan will I find you?


We cannot erase

The forest fire

I’ve fallen from your grace

And it leaves a bitter taste

It’s just me now, always the same face


If I go back to Michigan

Will I hear your voice again

If I go back to Michigan will I find you?

If I go back to Michigan

Will I hear your voice again

If I go back to Michigan will I find you?


Well we didn’t ask to be bleeding and wondering who left who

If you’re the sun I am the shadow

Well we didn’t ask to be breathing and taking in the view

Of the water and light it slowly swallows

Just a sunset on Lake Michigan


If I go back to Michigan

Will I hear your voice again

If I go back to Michigan will I find you?

If I go back to Michigan

Will I hear your voice again

If I go back to Michigan will I find you?


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Is it Too Late?

Maybe I was pushing you away

Light another fire 

I will come back to your flame

Maybe with my lungs about to break

I whisper your name

But now is it too late?

Now is it too late?

Thin Light

Ben Reneer

Release Date: June 15, 2018
Format: Digital Download
Thin Light

Lyrics

Now I'm back on the sidewalk

I watch the sky burn through the rain

In the words when I don't talk

And empty eyes unload again

And I'm barely believing

That there's a house my hands can raise

So I open my eyes and look

Through the haze


Thin light

I was buried in my cells that night

And she can't hear me if I'm in my mind

And I can't see her if I'm blind

In the thin light


Now I'm back at the window

I lap the drops of summer rain

On the roads that I don't know

I drive around for days and days

So I open the blinds and look

Through the haze

Thin light

I was buried in my cells that night

And she can't hear me if I'm in my mind

And I can't see her if I'm blind

In the thin light


Thin light

I was buried in my cells that night

And she can't hear me if I'm in my mind

And I can't see her if I'm blind

In the thin light

Swallow Like an Empty Sun - EP

Ben Reneer

Release Date: February 9, 2018
Format: Digital Download
Bike Ride
She Breathes (feat. Ari Kokol)
Swallow
Last Spring
Emma (feat. Katie Lee Cragun)

Lyrics

Bike Ride

Staircase, pale face, play alone

Tough choice, your voice calls me home

Bike ride, rockslide, falling down

Warm cloth, blood loss, car ride now 


And all the memories pile up

They snag and pull me back


Third grade, mistake, I don’t know 

Cold days, hallways, walking home 

I wrote down the way I felt

Kept it away from everyone else 


And all the memories pile up

They snag and pull me back


Maybe we were meant to walk thru life with tired eyes 

and maybe we were born to crawl thru hell and not know why


Fighting with my dreams, it seems that I cannot surrender

But if I lie here still

If I lie here still will I remember? 

If I lie here still 

If I lie here still will I remember


And all the memories pile up

They snag and pull me back


Bike ride, rockslide, falling down

Warm cloth, blood loss, car ride now


-

She Breathes

You hear your baby cry 

Then the truth pours in – the crib is dry

Grass is blue in moonlight

You remember loss, remember life


It’s just a whisper from the other side

You slowly dry your face and send one more goodbye

And high above the clouds and autumn leaves

Despite the lack of oxygen, she breathes


The land takes more than it gives

If I had my way I’d have you live

I can’t step where you go

Now its me alone to watch these saplings grow


And now it’s just the land I plow and me

I’m digging through this dirt to try and set you free

And high above the clouds and autumn leaves

Despite the lack of oxygen, she breathes


You’re the lavender in this alfalfa town

Fighting off these storm clouds

You’re the lavender in this old valley town 

I watch the water fill your house

Washed away now


And now its just the land I plow and me

I’m digging through this dirt to try and set you free

And high above the clouds and autumn leaves

Despite the lack of oxygen, she breathes


-

Swallow

Can you hear me over the ocean?

A satellite said that you would

Can you save a ship from a sailor?

Tell me these words have been misunderstood


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in


Oh, 132 questions 

Make their way down south main every night

Small town bars and highway connections

I try but I just can't board my last flight


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in


Have you sold your wisdom for glory?

Would you let me sell mine for youth?

Now you whisper "The journey is not over"

I rattle my cage on the edge of the truth


And I only want to be the one

To hold you

Again

And I swallow like an empty sun

Just pulling you in


-

Last Spring

Life in this village moves fast and they pillage your heart

Life under fire, my only desire you discard


Mocked by these flowers, the day burns her hours into dark

Now I return to the sunset with you in Wadeview Park


Last spring the cobwebs broke and I lost you

Last spring I came apart 

Last spring the cobwebs broke and I lost you

Last spring I came apart


Mocked by these flowers the day burns her hours into dark

Now I return to the sunset with you in Wadeview Park


Last spring the cobwebs broke and I lost you

Last spring I came apart 

Last spring the cobwebs broke and I lost you

Last spring I came apart


I’m losing it

Like it’s tied to the sun and I’m spinning around

I’m losing it

Like it’s tied to the sun and I’m spinning around


Last spring, I came apart

Last spring, I came apart

Last spring, I came apart


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Emma

You stand at the water's edge and somewhere in last night

There's a child, she laughs

There's a girl, she cries


And they are both inside your eyes

Yeah, they are both there in your eyes


I left town a couple years, when I came home

I was so amazed at how you had grown

But you had cages of your own

Yeah, you had cages of your own


I wish that I could find a way to keep you safe

I wish that I could heal you today

Emma


Only cracked and broken can I see you full of light

When the winter ends but you're still not right

Well we're all wounded from the fight

Yeah we're all victims of this life


I wish that I could find a way to keep you safe

I wish that I could heal you today

Emma

Emma


Please don't swallow the darkness

Please don't swallow the world

Girl, don't swallow the shadow

Don't let it swallow my girl


I wish that I could find a way to keep you safe

I wish that I could heal you today

Emma


I wish that I could find a way to keep you safe

I wish that I could heal you today

Emma

Emma

Emma

Hand (feat. Sarah Appel)

Ben Reneer

Release Date: October 16, 2017
Format: Digital Download
Hand (feat. Sarah Appel)

Lyrics

Just a little silence 

Just a little shame 

Dip my finger in the well of ink 

I’m writing down your name


In just a little water 

You could watch me drown.

I’m affected by all kinds of weather

Whether or not it gets me down


I was living

Only to be on the run 

Oh there’s nothing to fear in the future 

The future’s already come and gone


So say goodbye to reason 

You try to dodge the truth 

Just a kid in an old man’s body

Trying to get back to youth


And when the world changed

We left ourselves behind

And when the world changed

I think we lost our minds 


And I know you know everything about me 

But I won’t show my hand 


Why do you keep running? 

You want to be alone

You’re a town with only one diner 

A couple of days in a car from home


From the upstairs window

I can see the world

It tries to tell me that everything I want 

Is wrapped up in a girl


And when the world changed

We left ourselves behind 

And when the world changed

I think we lost our minds 


And I know you know everything about me

But I won’t show my hand


And when the world changed

We left ourselves behind 

And when the world changed

I think we lost our minds


And I know you know everything about me 

But I won’t show my hand

Orange Avenue - EP

Ben Reneer

Release Date: June 7, 2017
Format: Digital Download
Orange Avenue (feat. Katie Lee Cragun)
Deep Divide (feat. Katie Lee Cragun & Paul Woodward)
Her Lightning (feat. Savannah Keenan Kroff & Paul Woodward)

Lyrics

Orange Avenue

I woke up cold and out of touch

The photos and the memories will never be enough

But if I could walk those streets today, would you still feel so far away?


Do you remember when I died?

Stepped on that airplane and let it take me from your side

On the last day of July

In a cloudy southern sky


Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain every stop reminding me of you

Orange Avenue?


There was nothing I could do,

but sit and watch the fire and rain of bullets fall on you

If God will send his angels down,

and wash the blood from your cold town.


I'm still drenched from the first time it rained on me

And now a constant downpour of tragedy


Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain ever stop,

Will the rain every stop reminding me of you

Orange Avenue?


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Deep Divide

I spent years wondering if I’d ever have a hometown

And she spilled tears on the ground

I walk the halls where they screamed, and I cry: There’s no going back now


Walking away from each other

Both of you leave me here in your deep divide, divide

Praying for me and my brother

Praying we’re not gonna have to take a side, a side


I might be steady despite it all but still there are factures inside

And I might recognize angry eyes and icy hands

And I might run and hide


Walking away from each other

Both of you leave me here in your deep divide, divide

Praying for me and my brother

Praying we’re not gonna have to take a side, a side


And with the rain, a family washed away

And memories are all that I have now


Walking away from each other

Both of you leave me here in your deep divide, divide

Praying for me and my brother

Praying we’re not gonna have to take a side, a side


-

Her Lightning

As I watched you learn

Watched your eyes burn 

With the fire, the light

That I can’t see here tonight. 


All your downtown streets I knew. 

Some things died and some things grew

And your red clouds waved goodbye as I left you for the empty sky. 


I can still hear the sound of her lightning come down 

And the rain fall as we climbed that hill 

And our home was a ghost when I lived on the coast 

And the memory of her haunts me still. 


When I see you in my head you’re the only mouth I fed

And it kills me still to know that I let myself let you go


I can still hear the sound of her lightning come down 

And the rain fall as we climbed that hill 

And our home was a ghost when I lived on the coast 

And the memory of her haunts me still. 


Talk to me about everything that I left that you sent me to find (to find)

Cause here I am once again at your door but its just in my mind

My mind


I can still hear the sound of her lightning come down 

And the rain fall as we climbed that hill 

And our home was a ghost when I lived on the coast 

And the memory of her haunts me still.

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